Now, above your head, imagine a warm golden light—like sunlight and honey blended.
This is the light of compassion.
Of deep truth.
Of healing curiosity.
Let it gently pour into you through the crown of your head.
Slowly, slowly.
It fills your scalp… your forehead…
your face and jaw…
your neck and throat—opening expression.
Your shoulders, chest, heart…
Down your spine, to your pelvis, thighs, knees, calves, feet.
Your entire body is bathed in warm light.
You are glowing from the inside.
Relaxed, safe, open.
Nothing hidden.
Nothing forced.
And now we begin the exploration.
Let your mind float back—without force—toward your early experiences of attraction.
Who was the first person you were drawn to?
Not necessarily someone you loved—just someone who awakened something in you.
Let the image form gently.
There is no right answer.
Just curiosity.
Let this memory unfold.
Where were you?
What did you feel in your body?
Excitement? Confusion? Safety? Shame?
Now allow other memories to surface.
Moments where you questioned something about yourself.
Moments of desire you tried to hide.
Moments of closeness that sparked a response—physical or emotional.
Watch them as if on a screen in the garden.
No judgment.
Just observation.
Your unconscious is offering pieces of your truth.
Now ask gently:
“What parts of me have been hidden?”
“What did I desire, but never allow myself to say?”
“What truth was whispered in dreams I ignored?”
“What am I scared will happen if I admit what I want?”
Listen for answers.
Breathe through any tightness that comes.
Now bring up your present.
What do you notice when you feel desire now?
Does it have a gender? A shape? A type?
Or is it more about a feeling? A safety? A connection?
What would it feel like to give yourself full permission…
to desire what you desire?
Now imagine someone approaching in the garden.
Not a real person.
But a part of you—your Erotic Self.
They may look like you. Or not.
They may be gendered, fluid, shifting, unknown.
They walk toward you with confidence.
And they sit beside you.
They hold all your longing.
All your permission.
All your honesty.
Look into their eyes.
They say to you:
“You don’t need to choose.
You only need to feel.
I am not here to be explained.
I am here to be embodied.”
Ask them now:
“What truth are you here to show me?”
Let them answer.
Let the answer surprise you.
Now ask:
“What do I need to release to fully accept my sexuality?”
Listen.
Receive.
And feel your Erotic Self gently merge into your body.
No separation.
You are now one.
You are complete.
You are free.
